first post....took me long enough
2007-03-21High school gets old fast. the trends get boring....meaningless.
the drama gets annoying. the people who are actually worth spending time with get less and less. Anticipating college. Senioritis and the lazy factor start coming into play, while all the anxiety and nervous feelings about moving out start to drag you down. I should be enjoying every last drop of my senior year....partying with the few friends i have....but instead i end up renting movies ive never seen before from the library and confining myself to a tired and numb world.....where the only exciting thing i have to look forward to is prom. maybe its just me....but this is not how i pictured myself going out. I pictured tons of friends, a cool confidence that had developed over the years, being much prettier and taller than i am, and pretty much running the school....but thats not me at all.
i wouldnt say i regret it....no....i just miss the excitement i used to have.
life is boring right now. like a system repeated over and over again.
and maybe the oppurtunity to feel fresh again is laying right before my eyes...
it certainly feels like it is
why is it that when i hate the way my life is....that i dont change it? because it really is that simple.....isn't it?
